patient's notes 4.07.2006 14:39

i know and have always known the difference between mistakes, confusion and conscious desicions, these medicines are keeping me on the verge of stability and i need help. rather than pulling the ejection seat on me partner at least come back and look for me.

tag, you're it!

 

much love cathy

 

patient's notes 4.06.2006 16:54

no one truly knows my problem. even me. since i present so well it's easy to overlook. there are just these slight difficulties that only the sharpest tests will find and then only after repeated studies. it will take common metaphors to share these concepts. that's why i obsess on converying their meaning. that's why i ask confirming questions to see if i've communicated correctly.

patient's notes 4.07.2006 12:50

i'll be creative in an emergency. i'll apply the guidelines and then lose consciousness right before the final resolution. that's what everyone is afraid of. they want me to be creative, come up with solutions when the rule books can't apply due to time or conditions. but i'm always judged afterwards.

patient's notes 4.07.2006 11:24

was it plato who described the people shackled to the wall looking at the shadows cast by the sun in front of them ? i see the reflection of what is behind me and try to navigate backwards. i try to steer outside the slipstream.

what if i look ahead of the mirror, steer ahead of the slipstream away from the boat too close ? will i be clearer then ?

author's note 4.07.2006

i'm sorry that comments aren't getting re-posted. i've okayed them for reposting. i'm checking it out right now for why they aren't showing up ...

journal notes 4.07.2006 09:41

after referring to the patient's history i need to point out to the caregivers that he has been thoroughly examined. physicologically there no damage, however is it possible that biochemically it is quite probable that his serotonin control mechanisms are affected. i can't make that judgement beyond reviewing. i shouldn't even be remarking on it.

the patient and his mother had another argument last night. it devolved into the issue of responsibility. she wants him to make decisions for her without her having to accept responsibilty for the decisions. he simply lacks the authority to make those type decisions and she won't make her own. if he guides her step by step on what to do, as she is asking him to do, he's accepting responsibility for the decisions and he's not in a position lgeally to do that. she doesn't understand that and her lawyer or government agencies aren't there to have her understand that.